Who's Driving? Lessons from a dream, symbols about transportation & choices

I’ve likely mentioned in past posts that I’ve always been a lucid and vivid dreamer. For years, I’ve journaled about dreams that have guided me in ways that I can hardly put into words. These dreams have come as messages from my spirit guides, my higher self, and visitations from loved ones. Last night, I had a dream that woke me up with an undeniable urge to write it all down and share.

This dream, like many before it, featured the usual suspects of symbols that often appear on my journey: cars, the ocean, mountains, and even the sensation of salt on my skin. As anyone who journals their dreams might notice, there are recurring symbols—much like in my mediumship readings—each layered with meaning. For me, modes of transportation—cars, buses, boats, planes—serve as metaphors for life’s journey. They hold clues to how I’m navigating life at the moment. Locations also carry significance: near water, I know it’s about my emotions; in the mountains, it’s often about the challenges I’m facing.

Last night, I dreamed of two cars, both filled with luggage—none of it mine—representing the emotional baggage of others. I wasn’t driving either car but found myself along for the ride. The message felt clear: others are on their own journeys, and I need to let go of carrying what isn’t mine.

That realization got my brain spinning. What actual worries or challenges in my waking life am I carrying that aren’t mine? To some people, this might seem like a lot of effort to metaphorically unpack a dream. But as I mentioned earlier, my dreams have always been incredibly insightful. If I’m remembering small details from each scenario, there’s a reason for it. It’s worth sharing, and maybe those reading this can relate or gain insight into their dreams as well.

Dream Interpretation 101: Here’s how I interpreted some of the symbols in my dream:

Cars: For me, cars have always represented life’s journey, so it’s important to pay attention to the details: Who’s driving—you or someone else? Are you arriving at a destination? Is the car working properly, or are you lost and struggling to get there? These questions often remind us to take back the wheel in life if we’re just passengers, or to acknowledge challenges when we’re feeling stuck.

Luggage: This is a recurring visual in both my dreams and my psychic sessions. My spirit guides often use luggage to represent worries—either our own or those of others. I often ask clients, “Are you carrying someone else’s worries like rocks in your backpack?” Last night’s dream blended past and present energy, making me question how much of what I was carrying truly belonged to me.

The Mountains: I couldn’t help but think of the book The Mountain Is You by Brianna Wiest. For me, mountains symbolize challenges—those uphill climbs we often avoid or feel unprepared to face. They can feel isolating, just as I felt last night when trying to find my way home. But they also represent growth, resilience, and the strength to find solutions on your own.

The Ocean: Water often symbolizes our emotional state, and although the ocean appeared only briefly in my dream, it carried significant meaning. I was covered in salt that needed washing off—a sign of healing and cleansing. It felt like a reminder to release what doesn’t belong to me and embrace vulnerability—physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

This dream reminded me that life is full of choices. Sometimes, we’re along for the ride in someone else’s car, carrying their baggage, and wondering why we feel stuck. Other times, we’re standing at a crossroads, unsure of how to get home. In these moments, the dream seems to say: trust yourself. Let go of what doesn’t belong to you, take the wheel, and embrace your unique path.

There’s no right or wrong way to navigate life, but we do need to honor our own journey. It’s okay to part ways with people, habits, or situations that no longer align with where we’re headed. And when the road gets tough, know that every challenge holds the potential for growth and clarity.

So, if you find yourself waking up with a vivid dream, don’t brush it off. Write it down, reflect on its symbols, and see what messages it holds for you. The answers might just guide you home.

Your future is closer than you think: insights from Meditation

In the summer of 2011, my life shifted in ways I could never have imagined. It was the start of my meditation journey, a journey that would awaken my consciousness and open the door to a world far greater than myself. Looking back now, 13 years later, I’m struck by how profoundly I’ve changed—how much I’ve grown spiritually, emotionally, and in my daily life.

This morning, while scrolling through my phone (a habit I know I need to rein in), I stumbled upon a video on manifestation. The idea of pulling energy from 15 years into the future and anchoring it into your present reality captured my attention. Manifestation has always been a pretty strong suit of mine—checking off goals and dreams with what often felt like, Okay, I’ve got this. But this concept of working deeper with quantum energy stirred something within me, and I’m not sure I’ll even scratch the surface in this blog post. But, I do think it’s important to share what came through in my meditation.

As I meditated, I asked, How can I bring my future into my present with ease? The answer that came through was swift and clear: “The future is now.” At first, I could rationalize the idea in my mind. Okay, I get it. We are living in the past, present, and future simultaneously. But I couldn’t shake the feeling that there was more to this message—something just beneath the surface, waiting to be uncovered. What was I missing?

 A Vision Revisited: The Desert and the Sand

Meditation has always been a space where I receive insights, and today was no different. As I sat with the phrase “the future is now,” a vision unfolded. At first, I envisioned myself doing readings full-time—my calendar fully booked, being of service, and helping many people. This was what I was hoping to see. But instead—or perhaps in addition—I saw myself lecturing in front of a crowd, something I’ve always fiercely feared.

It was a far cry from the terrified person I thought I was, remembering a time when I needed to borrow half a Valium from a friend (yes, I was that nervous and desperate) just to speak on stage in front of a small crowd of people at a work meeting, fearing I might pass out or throw up. Yet what struck me wasn’t just the vision itself; it was what followed.

I suddenly saw soft sand running through my fingers, which triggered a memory from the summer of 2011—the very beginning of my meditation practice. I had attended a meditation class with my mentor, a psychic medium, who spoke about Christ consciousness during a morning chat before class. Back then, I didn’t fully understand energy, guides, or spiritual growth. But several months later, during another meditation class, the subject was briefly brought up again, and I didn’t think much about it. But, when I sat in meditation, an energy surrounded me that was so incredibly warm it felt like I was sitting in front of a fire—comforting yet really powerful.

In a quick flash, I had a vision of Jeshua (Jesus) standing silently beside me in a vast desert. He gestured toward the horizon, sweeping his arm from left to right multiple times, as if to say, “Look.” At the time, I didn’t understand the vision’s significance. Today, I finally get it. Laughing out loud.

Needless to say, whether I understood the message 13 years ago or not, I cried like a baby. Tears poured down my face from the power behind such an incredibly beautiful ascended master. All I can think as I’m typing this now is, How sci-fi is this ride I’m on?

I’ll admit, I had to look up the meaning of the desert and sand this morning, thinking, Why didn’t I do that 13 years ago? But before I did, my guides asked me to first discover what it meant to me first. The words unknown, resilience, opportunity, future not realized, spiritual testing, looking inward, growth, and divine guidance popped into my mind. It felt in sync with the researched meaning of both the desert and the sand, which hold deep spiritual significance. The pieces of the puzzle began to unfold:

The Desert: A place of spiritual growth, testing, and solitude. It invites us to strip away distractions and focus on what truly matters.

The Sand: A reminder of time, impermanence, and the importance of letting go. Just as sand slips through our fingers, life flows in ways we cannot control.

When Jeshua gestured toward the horizon, he was inviting me to expand my awareness—to look beyond the immediate and trust in the unfolding of divine timing. Now, with the sand running through my fingers, I fully understand the message: the future is not something “out there”; it’s something we create and embody in the present moment.

Talk about divine timing—learning the meaning behind a vision 13 years later. Mind blown. You can’t make this stuff up.

Manifestation isn’t about force or striving; it’s about aligning your energy with your vision and letting it unfold naturally.

Here are a few takeaways from this morning’s meditation in manifesting that I pulled from the experience

Embrace the Now “aka the future is now” Start by grounding yourself in the present moment. Ask, What do I want my future to feel like? Then, bring that energy into your day-to-day actions.

Let Go of Control Just as sand slips through your fingers, release the need to control every outcome. Trust that the universe is working in your favor.

Take Inspired Action Manifestation isn’t passive. Take small steps that align with your vision, but let them be guided by intuition rather than fear or pressure.

Be Open to Growth Fear often accompanies growth. My vision of lecturing reminded me that the things we resist are often where our greatest growth lies. Ugh, right?!

Thirteen years ago, I couldn’t feel the energy of Christ consciousness. I was the first year student, overwhelmed, curious and unsure. Today, I can look back and see how every moment—every struggle and triumph—was part of the journey to understanding.

How beautiful. That vision of the desert reminded me of how all the dots I’ve needed to connect for learning and growth over the years have come together. The sand running through my fingers teaches us to surrender, and the presence of Jeshua in the vision is a reminder to trust the divine guidance within and around me. And this morning, I was reminded that the future isn’t something we chase; it’s something we embody.

So, if you’re holding on too tightly or waiting for the “perfect moment,” let this be your invitation to let go. Your future is now. Trust it. Live it. BE it.

Manifesting Essentials: Shifting from expectation to invitation

We all dream of manifesting a life filled with abundance—financial freedom, a fulfilling relationship, that perfect job. But often, as we pour our energy into these desires, we find ourselves hitting roadblocks. The secret isn’t just in focusing on the specifics of what we want, but in understanding the underlying energy behind our intentions. Last week, I received a message from my spirit guides that reshaped my approach to manifestation.
Their insight was a true aha moment—or more like an ohhh, that makes sense—revealing that it’s not about zeroing in on the target, but about aligning with the energy of possibility and inviting in the outcomes that serve our highest good.

It’s more than words: We’re often taught that manifestation is as simple as “thinking it, feeling it, receiving it.” While intention-setting is yes, important, the energy we carry behind our words, emotions, and thoughts plays an even more crucial role. Every desire, no matter how big or small, has a unique energetic signature that carries with it a frequency—one that can either attract or repel what we seek. My guides encouraged me to explore the energy of “inviting possibility” instead of narrowly focusing on a desired outcome.

Shift from expectation to invitation: When manifesting, it’s easy to get hung up on specifics—or to worry that you’re not being specific enough. For example, if you’re seeking a promotion or a new job but are unsure of which path to take, there is power in allowing a broader perspective. Try shifting your thought process to, ‘I am inviting career growth that brings fulfillment, learning, and financial abundance.’ This subtle shift opens doors for spirit to work in your favor, often in ways that are more aligned than you could have imagined.

Creating the feeling of enough: A common struggle in manifestation is the feeling of lack, which can unintentionally create resistance. If you’re asking for financial abundance, but deep down you’re feeling a sense of scarcity, the energy can create a block. True abundance starts with the energy of “enough,” which radiates from a place of gratitude. Take a few moments each day to reflect on what’s already going well, big or small. When you can feel content with what you have, you’re more likely to magnetize more of it.

Practice Gratitude: Start each morning with a five-minute “gratitude grounding” exercise. Close your eyes, place a hand on your heart, and breathe deeply as you think of three things you genuinely appreciate. This simple ritual aligns your energy with a state of appreciation, elevating your frequency to match the energy of abundance.

Feel the energy of what you’re asking for: One of the most profound messages I received from my spirit guides was this: “It’s not about the words; it’s about the energy of your desire.” If you want a relationship, envision how it would feel to share laughter, companionship, and mutual respect with someone. When you match your feelings to the outcome you desire, you start to embody the energy of that reality, inviting it into your life.

Visualize with Emotion: Spend time each day visualizing yourself living out your desired experience. If you’re hoping to manifest a fulfilling job, feel what it would be like to wake up excited for work, to feel valued by your colleagues, and to end each day with a sense of accomplishment. The emotions you cultivate in this exercise will naturally attract the reality you envision.

Invite your spirit guides to help: Manifestation isn’t only a mental exercise; it’s a collaboration with spirit. When we ask for guidance and stay open to signs and synchronicities, spirit becomes an active participant in our journey. My spirit guides often remind me to approach manifestation as a co-creation rather than a demand. This means allowing spirit to play a part in how and when things unfold.

As you work on manifesting, ask your spirit guides to show you a sign when you’re in alignment with your goals. This could be a specific image, word, or symbol that resonates with you. When you see it, you’ll know you’re on the right path. These signs are gentle nudges from spirit, affirming that you’re in sync with your highest purpose.

Manifestation is this beautiful mix between our desires and the universe’s wisdom. By focusing on the energy behind our desires, embracing the present moment, and inviting spirit into the process, we create a space for transformation that goes beyond what we can plan or predict. The next time you find yourself hyper focused on a specific outcome, take a moment to tune into the energy of opportunity. Know that every step forward, every moment of gratitude, and every sign from spirit is bringing you closer to a life that resonates with your truest self. You have everything you need within you to create a life full of possibility—simply by allowing the universe to meet you halfway.

The hidden grief behind our personal growth

I recently came across a quote by Té V Smith that said, “No one warns you about the amount of mourning in growth,” and it really hit home for me. Looking back on the peaks and valleys of my own journey, I realize just how true this is. Personal growth is often seen as something positive—
an exciting journey toward becoming the best version of ourselves. But after reading that quote, I felt it was important to talk about the part of growth that we don’t discuss enough: the mourning that comes with it.

As we pour time and energy into self-care, self-love, and self-worth, we naturally evolve. And with that evolution comes the release of old habits, shifts in our relationships, and versions of ourselves that no longer serve us. This process can definitely feel like a form of loss, and with it comes grief.

The spiritual journey is often portrayed as a path of light, peace, and harmony, and while that’s true, I believe the shadow parts of ourselves play an even greater role in helping us find that peace and harmony—it’s the darkness before the dawn, if you will. When we transition from one chapter of our lives to another, it can feel like letting go of the parts of ourselves we’ve clung to for comfort. Some of these parts have been with us for so long that it feels almost impossible to imagine life without them. Letting go can stir deep emotions, often bringing to the surface feelings we had buried, brushed under the rug or thought we had moved on from—without realizing there was more work to do.

When these emotions resurface, what I call ‘the pits of despair’ within myself can set in. There have been multiple times when I couldn’t stop crying for hours. And those in my inner circle know I’ve referred to it as the “Angelique Pity Party.” Maybe I’m being hard on myself in those moments, but that’s part of the process too. Feeling all the doom, gloom, and “why mes” can crack you open, as if you’re standing at the doorway to your soul, realizing, “Okay… it’s time to go.” You can’t hold on to this anymore if you want to move forward. And those tears, well, they become the beginning of transformation, of mourning. That’s how it’s been for me, and it’s something I’ve heard others talk about and go through as well.

But the mourning isn’t a sign of weakness or failure. It’s proof of the depth of the transformation we’re experiencing. It takes true courage to let go of the parts of ourselves that no longer serve us—the stuck parts or the pieces of our lives that just don’t fit anymore. While growth involves mourning, on the flip side, it brings resilience, wisdom, and a deeper connection to ourselves. Every time we release something that no longer serves us, we create space for new opportunities, healthier relationships, and the big one—more self-awareness. You find yourself in a state where you become “the forever student,” constantly evolving, and that’s something worth celebrating.

It’s important to remind ourselves that it’s okay to mourn our past, to feel the depth of that loss, but also to not lose sight of the beauty in what’s unfolding. Our spiritual journey is one of constant renewal. As my spirit guides once said to me, “Your awakening, my love, does not come but once. This is the path of many roads, many mountains. What you seek has never been lost, but the length of your journey to discover this, my dear, is completely up to you.” Powerful words I’ll never forget.

For those of you on the path of personal growth, know that you are not alone! Every soul experiences this duality—the grief of letting go and the joy of stepping into something new. Trust that your growth is unfolding as it’s meant to, even when it feels difficult. You have the courage and strength to navigate these changes and emerge more empowered, more aligned with your truest self.

Remember, the mourning is temporary, but the growth is eternal.

Stop Rubbernecking the Roadblocks

I was on the phone with a close friend the other night, a fellow intuitive, and I swear our spirit guides love to pop into our conversations, adding tidbits of wisdom to help guide us through life’s challenges. It’s quite wild how synchronized it all can be, but I wouldn’t change a thing. I’m forever thankful for those nuggets of “aha” moments that appear at just the right time. And, this was so powerful, I knew I had to share it because it speaks to something many of us face on our spiritual journey.

My friend and I were talking about how we often create elaborate stories in our minds—what we think the other person might be feeling, or scenarios that, 99.9% of the time, aren’t even real. Our thoughts take us to some dark places, especially when it comes to our self-worth, confidence, and ability to see what truly matters. It’s like the old saying, “What other people think of you is none of your business.” Right in the middle of this conversation, my friend’s spirit guide jumped in with a piece of advice that made me laugh and feel enlightened all at once: “Stop rubbernecking the roadblocks.”

At first, I nearly interrupted my friend mid-sentence to share what their spirit guide had just shouted to me clairaudiently, but I paused to let the words sink in. What a profound statement: Stop rubbernecking the roadblocks.

Oh my gosh… Have we not all been here? We’re driving along in life when we suddenly hit a standstill. Something blocks our path, and instead of moving forward or finding a solution, we get stuck staring at the roadblock. We analyze it from every angle, make up stories in our minds about why it’s there, how it’s stopping us, and how long we’ll be stuck. The truth is, in those moments when we feel paused or unable to move forward, we have two choices:

1. Worry about the obstacle. Let your thoughts spiral into worst-case scenarios and overanalyze every detail, leaving you stuck in indecision.

2. Be present and choose your next step. Acknowledge that sometimes roadblocks happen, but they don’t define your journey. Take a reroute if needed, trust in the timing, and own the decisions that will lead you to what’s best for your highest good.

The more I sat with it, I realized that this spiritual message isn’t just about the literal roadblocks we face—it’s about those moments when life seems to throw up obstacles, and instead of moving through them, we linger. We obsess over the problem instead of looking within ourselves for the guidance we need. The lesson here—stop dwelling on what’s holding you back and, instead, shift your focus to how you can move forward with intention and trust.

Our thoughts can create barriers that are far more limiting than any actual obstacle. When we allow ourselves to get caught up in negative self-talk, worries, or the need to control every detail, we forget that divine timing and our own intuition are powerful allies. Roadblocks are just pauses along the journey, offering us the space to reflect, adjust, and grow. They aren’t the end of the road.

In the end, “stop rubbernecking the roadblocks” is to me about shifting your focus from what’s holding you back to what you can do to move forward. Life will always have its challenges, but how we respond to those challenges defines our growth. The next time you feel stuck, take a breath, trust your intuition, and remember that even a detour can lead to incredible opportunities. You are not defined by the roadblocks you face, but by how you choose to navigate them.