If I met my past self.

Have you ever wondered what it would be like to sit down with your past self? To look into those eyes—perhaps a bit more guarded, maybe a touch more vulnerable—and just listen? This morning, I woke up thinking about it and asked myself how I would feel if I had that opportunity. Would I embrace her rough-around-the-edges moments, those questionable choices, and the hard-won victories she fought so fiercely for? How would I honor her today?

When I think about it, I’d want to thank her—and if you know me, you know I’m all about the hugs, and she’d be getting a lot of them. I’d thank her for the strength she called on when life didn’t make sense, for the lessons she endured, and for the resilience she built along the way. Every decision she made—each one a stepping stone that brought her closer to this version of me—has shaped who I am today. Even those chapters I’d love to rewrite or forget became part of a bigger story, one that’s still unfolding.

Every chapter we leave behind has a purpose, no matter how messy or uncertain it felt in the moment. It’s easy to get lost in the “what-ifs” and “if-onlys,” but if we linger there, we risk missing the beauty of the present and the potential of the future. So, rather than striving for perfection in our past or our present, what if we focused on creating as much inner peace as we can? Peace doesn’t mean perfection; it means allowing yourself to fully embrace every part of your journey, knowing each moment is helping you refine who you want to be moving forward.

Imagine looking back with empathy, not regret. To appreciate every struggle, every setback, as an essential ingredient in the life you’re creating now. From this lens, our biggest regrets can be transformed into guideposts, showing us what we truly value and who we aspire to become. In this way, our past selves become honored teachers, allowing us to grow without clinging to old mistakes or limiting definitions of who we are.

Our past selves remind us that growth isn’t about erasing or perfecting, but about fully embracing who we are today. Every new choice, every shift in perspective, is an opportunity to build a life rooted in authenticity and peace.

So as we reflect on our past, here’s a little love note to remind us to honor it. Appreciate each part for its role in shaping who you are. Release what no longer serves you, and step into the present with gratitude for how far you’ve come. In this way, you create space for new beginnings and a beautifully, empowered future. Embrace the journey—your journey. Every step brings you closer to your truest self.

The hidden grief behind our personal growth

I recently came across a quote by Té V Smith that said, “No one warns you about the amount of mourning in growth,” and it really hit home for me. Looking back on the peaks and valleys of my own journey, I realize just how true this is. Personal growth is often seen as something positive—
an exciting journey toward becoming the best version of ourselves. But after reading that quote, I felt it was important to talk about the part of growth that we don’t discuss enough: the mourning that comes with it.

As we pour time and energy into self-care, self-love, and self-worth, we naturally evolve. And with that evolution comes the release of old habits, shifts in our relationships, and versions of ourselves that no longer serve us. This process can definitely feel like a form of loss, and with it comes grief.

The spiritual journey is often portrayed as a path of light, peace, and harmony, and while that’s true, I believe the shadow parts of ourselves play an even greater role in helping us find that peace and harmony—it’s the darkness before the dawn, if you will. When we transition from one chapter of our lives to another, it can feel like letting go of the parts of ourselves we’ve clung to for comfort. Some of these parts have been with us for so long that it feels almost impossible to imagine life without them. Letting go can stir deep emotions, often bringing to the surface feelings we had buried, brushed under the rug or thought we had moved on from—without realizing there was more work to do.

When these emotions resurface, what I call ‘the pits of despair’ within myself can set in. There have been multiple times when I couldn’t stop crying for hours. And those in my inner circle know I’ve referred to it as the “Angelique Pity Party.” Maybe I’m being hard on myself in those moments, but that’s part of the process too. Feeling all the doom, gloom, and “why mes” can crack you open, as if you’re standing at the doorway to your soul, realizing, “Okay… it’s time to go.” You can’t hold on to this anymore if you want to move forward. And those tears, well, they become the beginning of transformation, of mourning. That’s how it’s been for me, and it’s something I’ve heard others talk about and go through as well.

But the mourning isn’t a sign of weakness or failure. It’s proof of the depth of the transformation we’re experiencing. It takes true courage to let go of the parts of ourselves that no longer serve us—the stuck parts or the pieces of our lives that just don’t fit anymore. While growth involves mourning, on the flip side, it brings resilience, wisdom, and a deeper connection to ourselves. Every time we release something that no longer serves us, we create space for new opportunities, healthier relationships, and the big one—more self-awareness. You find yourself in a state where you become “the forever student,” constantly evolving, and that’s something worth celebrating.

It’s important to remind ourselves that it’s okay to mourn our past, to feel the depth of that loss, but also to not lose sight of the beauty in what’s unfolding. Our spiritual journey is one of constant renewal. As my spirit guides once said to me, “Your awakening, my love, does not come but once. This is the path of many roads, many mountains. What you seek has never been lost, but the length of your journey to discover this, my dear, is completely up to you.” Powerful words I’ll never forget.

For those of you on the path of personal growth, know that you are not alone! Every soul experiences this duality—the grief of letting go and the joy of stepping into something new. Trust that your growth is unfolding as it’s meant to, even when it feels difficult. You have the courage and strength to navigate these changes and emerge more empowered, more aligned with your truest self.

Remember, the mourning is temporary, but the growth is eternal.

Facing the Unknown: Why I choose not to Predict when Someones going to die.

Years ago, a very wise teacher and brilliant medium once said, “When it comes to sharing in readings our time of death, I’m not interested in playing God.” Her words have forever shaped my approach and core beliefs as I continue my journey as a psychic and medium, especially when confronted with questions about one’s mortality in this lifetime.

I decided to write this blog because lately, I’ve been getting a lot of clients asking the age-old question: When will I die? When will a parent, spouse, or loved one die? These are questions that I think all of us ask ourselves as humans, and something I personally feared as well before awakening to my abilities as a medium—how long do I have?

When a client asks me these questions, I approach them with great care and empathy, especially when someone’s parent or loved one has been suffering from a long-term illness and they want to know how much more time they have with them. It’s only natural to seek peace of mind and, for some, a moment of relief from the daily stress of caring for someone or worrying about their own fate. But the question arises: how does knowing if you have 2 days, weeks, or 30 years left to live truly benefit you?

When these types of readings present themselves, a consistent message comes through from the spirit world every time: Let go of what you cannot control and manage what you can, as best as you can. It is not our job as humans to worry about our fate or the fate of others but to live the best life we can in the present moment. I’m aware that this is easier said than done, as life can be filled with suffering, pain, and worry.

Even as someone who has been gifted with the ability to see a person’s timeline from past to future, the messages are clear: the energy I am seeing is the current energy in the present moment. While a reading can bring peace of mind, beautiful hope, and affirming evidence, it’s important to remember that our futures are fluid and can change or shift. Our souls are infinite, but our experiences in this lifetime have a time limit—some short, some long—but we all share the same fate. Whatever time you have, LIVE IT. Live it with great love, with joy, with kindness, and compassion for yourself and for others. Doing the best that you can is all that you can do. Surround yourself with positive people who support you, lean on one another when times get tough, and give yourself grace on days when your best is at the bare minimum. The message here is to be present—you can’t change the past, and you can’t control the future. All we have is today.

I’ll end with this: So, why go to a psychic if that’s what you want to know? Isn’t that what psychics do? Not every psychic medium is right for everyone. In my personal connection with the spirit world, my role is to help you on your journey today. I am a vessel and translator from the spirit world, communicating messages to the best of my abilities. Everyone’s journey is unique. My intentions and relationship with the spirit world are always focused on your highest good, offering solutions and guidance. While I can often sense and share when messages from the spirit world indicate that things are easing up or need more time to work through, predicting when someone’s life is meant to end is not something you’ll ever hear me express. If that’s what you seek, I wouldn’t be the right fit.

Love Never Dies. In memory of.

This morning, I woke up to some sad news that reminded me of how fragile life is. It’s often within moments of grief that we start to reflect on what truly matters. Grief reminds us that we opened our hearts; I guess in many ways you could say it is the price we pay for love, but as difficult as it may feel to have lost, it is even more of a reminder that we have loved. That someone came into our lives and made a profound impact, no matter how long we’ve known them, how fleeting or small. The beautiful thing is, we take with us a piece of that memory, the essence of their soul, and it lives on within us. It is in honoring the privilege of experiencing knowing them that we continue to move forward, to seize the day if you will, to embrace life to its fullest, and to let our love shine bright because at the end of the day, it will always be about the love that we give and the love that we receive in return.

For Linda. Your light lives on dear beautiful cousin. Rest in Peace.