In the summer of 2011, my life shifted in ways I could never have imagined. It was the start of my meditation journey, a journey that would awaken my consciousness and open the door to a world far greater than myself. Looking back now, 13 years later, I’m struck by how profoundly I’ve changed—how much I’ve grown spiritually, emotionally, and in my daily life.

This morning, while scrolling through my phone (a habit I know I need to rein in), I stumbled upon a video on manifestation. The idea of pulling energy from 15 years into the future and anchoring it into your present reality captured my attention. Manifestation has always been a pretty strong suit of mine—checking off goals and dreams with what often felt like, Okay, I’ve got this. But this concept of working deeper with quantum energy stirred something within me, and I’m not sure I’ll even scratch the surface in this blog post. But, I do think it’s important to share what came through in my meditation.

As I meditated, I asked, How can I bring my future into my present with ease? The answer that came through was swift and clear: “The future is now.” At first, I could rationalize the idea in my mind. Okay, I get it. We are living in the past, present, and future simultaneously. But I couldn’t shake the feeling that there was more to this message—something just beneath the surface, waiting to be uncovered. What was I missing?

 A Vision Revisited: The Desert and the Sand

Meditation has always been a space where I receive insights, and today was no different. As I sat with the phrase “the future is now,” a vision unfolded. At first, I envisioned myself doing readings full-time—my calendar fully booked, being of service, and helping many people. This was what I was hoping to see. But instead—or perhaps in addition—I saw myself lecturing in front of a crowd, something I’ve always fiercely feared.

It was a far cry from the terrified person I thought I was, remembering a time when I needed to borrow half a Valium from a friend (yes, I was that nervous and desperate) just to speak on stage in front of a small crowd of people at a work meeting, fearing I might pass out or throw up. Yet what struck me wasn’t just the vision itself; it was what followed.

I suddenly saw soft sand running through my fingers, which triggered a memory from the summer of 2011—the very beginning of my meditation practice. I had attended a meditation class with my mentor, a psychic medium, who spoke about Christ consciousness during a morning chat before class. Back then, I didn’t fully understand energy, guides, or spiritual growth. But several months later, during another meditation class, the subject was briefly brought up again, and I didn’t think much about it. But, when I sat in meditation, an energy surrounded me that was so incredibly warm it felt like I was sitting in front of a fire—comforting yet really powerful.

In a quick flash, I had a vision of Jeshua (Jesus) standing silently beside me in a vast desert. He gestured toward the horizon, sweeping his arm from left to right multiple times, as if to say, “Look.” At the time, I didn’t understand the vision’s significance. Today, I finally get it. Laughing out loud.

Needless to say, whether I understood the message 13 years ago or not, I cried like a baby. Tears poured down my face from the power behind such an incredibly beautiful ascended master. All I can think as I’m typing this now is, How sci-fi is this ride I’m on?

I’ll admit, I had to look up the meaning of the desert and sand this morning, thinking, Why didn’t I do that 13 years ago? But before I did, my guides asked me to first discover what it meant to me first. The words unknown, resilience, opportunity, future not realized, spiritual testing, looking inward, growth, and divine guidance popped into my mind. It felt in sync with the researched meaning of both the desert and the sand, which hold deep spiritual significance. The pieces of the puzzle began to unfold:

The Desert: A place of spiritual growth, testing, and solitude. It invites us to strip away distractions and focus on what truly matters.

The Sand: A reminder of time, impermanence, and the importance of letting go. Just as sand slips through our fingers, life flows in ways we cannot control.

When Jeshua gestured toward the horizon, he was inviting me to expand my awareness—to look beyond the immediate and trust in the unfolding of divine timing. Now, with the sand running through my fingers, I fully understand the message: the future is not something “out there”; it’s something we create and embody in the present moment.

Talk about divine timing—learning the meaning behind a vision 13 years later. Mind blown. You can’t make this stuff up.

Manifestation isn’t about force or striving; it’s about aligning your energy with your vision and letting it unfold naturally.

Here are a few takeaways from this morning’s meditation in manifesting that I pulled from the experience

Embrace the Now “aka the future is now” Start by grounding yourself in the present moment. Ask, What do I want my future to feel like? Then, bring that energy into your day-to-day actions.

Let Go of Control Just as sand slips through your fingers, release the need to control every outcome. Trust that the universe is working in your favor.

Take Inspired Action Manifestation isn’t passive. Take small steps that align with your vision, but let them be guided by intuition rather than fear or pressure.

Be Open to Growth Fear often accompanies growth. My vision of lecturing reminded me that the things we resist are often where our greatest growth lies. Ugh, right?!

Thirteen years ago, I couldn’t feel the energy of Christ consciousness. I was the first year student, overwhelmed, curious and unsure. Today, I can look back and see how every moment—every struggle and triumph—was part of the journey to understanding.

How beautiful. That vision of the desert reminded me of how all the dots I’ve needed to connect for learning and growth over the years have come together. The sand running through my fingers teaches us to surrender, and the presence of Jeshua in the vision is a reminder to trust the divine guidance within and around me. And this morning, I was reminded that the future isn’t something we chase; it’s something we embody.

So, if you’re holding on too tightly or waiting for the “perfect moment,” let this be your invitation to let go. Your future is now. Trust it. Live it. BE it.